Why isn’t there a word for excited + scared? I have always had this thing where I become extremely anxious whenever anything really good happens. It makes precisely no sense.
I was awake most of last night suffering from this condition. The reason? I was offered – and accepted – my dream job as a Travel and Events Editor.
I am beyond excited and yet some weird glitch in my biochemistry is sending off mixed messages that sound a bit like this, ‘I have new dresses! What if I suck? They seem so nice. Where is the nearest coffee shop? Where am I going to store my stuff? I get to write. I actually have a paid writing job. I am like a unicorn with new dresses that drinks coffee and types with its hooves!’
And so it goes. When I am like this, I can be lying down and feel like I have vertigo. That’s not normal, right?
Do you get this thing? What is this?